Happy 2016 you lovely people! Here are some pictures of me in an adorable vintage cat tee that are generally unrelated to the post below (oops!)
With the arrival of the new year I have – as I’m sure that you also have – seen countless blog posts with people writing resolutions, and their achievements of the past year… such a lovely idea – it makes me so happy that people are unafraid of celebrating their successes and what makes them happy! But I was scared to. Everyone seems to be what the want to be, to know where they’re going. Yet, in all honesty… I do not.
After sitting around, reading countless blog posts and feeling sorry for myself, I realised:
While maybe I’m not quite as accomplished/ happy/ balanced/ environmentally-friendly/ ethical/ healthy as others are (and as I’d like to be), all I can do is try to better myself and do more. Not for anyone else, or to measure up, but for myself and my own happiness.
And not only that, I have so much to be grateful for – happy and healthy loved ones, a roof over my head, food on my plate! I also have a job that I love, as well as this little side hobby, that does seem to be growing! I really shouldn’t allow myself to get wrapped up in such comparatively lesser worries, but sometimes my brain just runs off with itself and doesn’t allow for rational thought…
Things like anxiety have held me back for a long time, and often I feel like I have a handle on it but then (more often than not) I’ll inexplicably end up back at square one, which is incredibly frustrating. I adore blogging, but that makes it hurt even more when I’m too afraid to take photos, or to even open up a page and write anything. It feel like it’s trying to take away my passions, and make me scared of them. I guess that explains my struggle with frequent posting over the past year (so sorry about that, and the fact I’ve always just kind of tried gloss over it). But finding balance through eating right, yoga, meditation, colouring and other calming methods is helping me push back. All I can do is keep trying, and more importantly keep looking after myself.
In terms of other resolutions, I will continue with upping my ethical game – I’m fairly sure now that all of my make-up & beauty regime are cruelty free and I will be keeping that up, and further extending this mentality to my diet. So I’ll be trying to ensure that all meat and animal produce that I’ll be consuming will be from high-welfare animals (currently researching small farms/butchers that specialise in this, as well as services like Abel & Cole). This is looking like it will be an expensive decision (wah), so will probably mean that I’ll be cutting down on the animal product that I do eat!
I’ll also be make more time for my loved ones, so that they know they are loved, and also trying to push through things that initially seem scary, to prove to myself that I can do them!
As I write this it is terrifying as I feel like I’m sharing a silly amount, but it does feel like I’ve taken such a weight off and that I can go into this year less afraid. Start as you mean to go on and all that, eh!
I’m sorry for being such a massive rambler above, but it did help. Have any of you written like this and found the same? What are your thoughts/ resolutions for the year ahead?
I hope you will have the most fantastic year, and that you’ll be truly happy with everything that you achieve :3
Take care, you beautiful people!xxxx